Why?

 Probably I'm the only person who reads this, but at least this is my space to express what I really feel about life... 

A lot of thing happened since I made the decission of coming back to the country I was born. Actually, almost all the things that happened are bad. I think I'm forgetting to speak English and that's the worst thing. I felt in love again, and of course he doesn't even look at me like woman, he is mean and I hate him, IDK why he was on my way, I shouldn't said that but I wish the worst karma. 

I'm tired if COVID, as everyone, but my anxiety doesn't help. I have a lot of things on my mind, and the worst is that I really want to die... 

I'm tired of this life... I hate the country, the people, the weather, I hate myself... I'm just waiting, meanwhile I hope someone reads this and can say something nice... 'cause everyone just says that I'm crazy, and just listen to what they want... 

I'm giving up...