How?

Dear you,
How can you be so strong to keep fighting? Where can you get that courage to be alive? I'm very tired of everything, of my life, that one that I need to dwell with and fake a smile or fake that I'm very happy when I'm not when I actually want to stop.everything.
I tried one but I was so coward that I call my friend, but what he doesn't know is that I called him just to not being alone at that moment. That was my only chance and I screwed it up, I won't have another one like that, I was very close... Probably you can tell me that I really don't want to die otherwise I would have done it... I don't know... I'm living in a nightmare since I was born... I only want to stop this...

PanDa

PS... sometimes we all have those difficult days, but at the end, that is the life... the important is to recover and keep going...  (07.06.2020) I kept fighting... 

I love this song...